It the question that i have found myself constantly asking myself the past few months. Out of all the JWs i interact with, why did it have to be me that woke up from this mess?
I am relieved that i have woken up to the bullshit, but a side of me misses that fuzzy feeling of being a 100% believer. I can't go a single conversation with a JW these days without them mentioning something "great" about the org, and it's tough faking a positive response. Although these days i tend try to move the conversation along quickly, or say something funny / sarcastic about the org.
Although, there is a side to me that is relived its me that woke up and not someone else, as there isn't a single person i know that could deal with it in a rational controlled way. Maybe that's why i woke up, I'm able to deal with things quite controlled and rational? I just don't know.
Sorry, this is more of a rambling thread, just getting stuff off my chest.